|Dec. 4th, 2010 11:10 am Be the change you want to see in the world...|
As I said on facebook yesterday:
Being so poorly has given me lots of time to think about things... about the person I am, and the person I could be, and want to be.
In 2011, I shall do better.
I have let obstacles slow me down recently - not any more!
As soon as I am well.... watch out world, here I come! :-)
Also yesterday I updated the post I wrote about the New Year resolutions I made in Jan 2010, to reflect on how I think I have done with the resolutions I made:
(Feel free to comment there if you feel like it)
I haven't progressed in life as much as I would have liked to this year. I don't entirely blame myself for this: I have had several bouts of pretty bad illness that have knocked me for 6 (in fact the current one has knocked me for at least 12), and then there have been various relationship issues draining me during the year, which culminated in the end of my longest-ever relationship about a month ago, which still sucks, incidentally. So, these, and some other things, have rather stopped me in my tracks a bit this year. I have allowed this stuff to sap my motivation somewhat - understandable perhaps? But I feel I shouldn't have let 'stuff' get in the way and slow me down so much. Bad Mary. No biscuit! And as a result, there are several things I would have liked to achieve but haven't.
So, I would like to make 2011 significantly better, by being significantly better myself, to compensate for not fully being the person I would have liked to have been in 2010.
I would like to be a better friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend, aunty to the people I care about. In 2011, I will be.
I would like to be a better business woman - I am pleased to have set up 2 businesses in recent years, despite the CFS challenging me, and making good time/energy management essential. But, I need to really push these things to the next level. The tuition agency needs to expand to generate a more significant passive income in addition to the teaching I do myself. And the coaching business is just a fledgling business at the moment so it needs to develop, grow and flourish. I need to dig deep and make these things happen. And I very much want to: If I am to make life better for those around me, and do more for good causes, charity etc, then the reality is that to do so I need more hard cash, so I need to significantly increase my earnings from my business endeavours. I am determined to do this in 2011.
And I want to be a healthier person (physically, emotionally and spiritually). The extra weight I carry around undoubtedly puts more strain on my muscles and exacerbates the effects of the CFS. I have made a good start on seriously tackling the weight this autumn, having lost 1 stone 5lbs so far, and hoping to reach a 2 stone loss early in 2011. I need to keep this up. I will keep this up. In the past I have lost half a stone or so, then faltered and fallen off the wagon, and put it back on again. Not this time. I am keeping my motivation high by working with a coach. And it is working. I know I will succeed this time, and it feels great!
(ASIDE - Did I mention that coaching is amazing? So powerful. Life-changing, really. Everyone should have a coach! I am so glad to be working as a coach myself and helping people change their lives for the better. Gives me the 'feel good factor' every bit as much as teaching does.)
So yeah, lots of food for thought to help me in writing New Year resolutions for Jan 1st 2011 - I have thoughts about my resolutions already, but they are staying in a text file for me to mull over and edit before I post them here in January.
I am in incredible pain from the pleurisy at the moment, but inside, my heart is singing and I feel great about the future. I feel sure that many things are going to fall into place for me in 2011, because I know I can make things happen.
I don't believe in God, but I do believe in the serenity prayer, which I use as a meditation:
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.
All will be well, and 2011 will be brilliant, for me, and (hopefully) for all the people I care about.
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